Saturday 12 November 2011

Jiwa Kacau

Salam n hye all,jiwa kacau???eyup,jiwa kacau skrg nih...aq pn xtau la nape ngan aq nih,smenjak skit hri tuh...aq x bfikir as a normal person,mcm2 bnde mngarut yg aq fikir lam benak fikiran aq nih...truk2,ble aq pkir blik...yela,bdoh plak ase,p nk wt cmne...da tpikir cmtuh,huhuhu...okai,hri jumaat lpas aq blik umah...bgun2 tdo pgi tuh,abah aq col n suh blik kjap...ade hal pnting katanya,so lenjan je la dri kuala terengganu ke kemaman...ltih,pnat tuh jgn ckap la kn,ngan health condition aq yg x sbrapa nih...at last,ble smpai umah,abah aq ckap sal pnyakit aq,fiuhhh!!!lega asenye...da jmpe solution,sme ade operation or new method,ntah nme pe method tuh aq pn xtau la,so aq blik bncg ngan abah aq u plih method yg ane satu nk gune...stlah dpikir n wt kputusan,aq plih method bru sbb lau aq plih nk wt operation,doc ckap risiko u komplikasi agak tgi...so aq xnk amek risiko tuh,aq nk hdup bhgia brsame yg trsyg...so hri rabu nih aq akan g wt treatment tuh,hope selamat la sumenye...aq da x than ngan sume dugaan nih,bley dikatakn every night aq ngis sorg2 pkirkn sal diri aq nih...crying silently,eyup!!!xde org tau...aq xnk org tau mslah aq nih,ok la...da ngtuk nih,gtg blog trsyg...mybe esok aq conteng ag ngan luahan hti aq nih,daaa :)

Friday 11 November 2011

It's My Life

Salam n hye all.....sedih,kecewa,sume skli brcampur baur prasaan aq skrg nih...asal sume nih jdi kt aq???hina sgt ke diri aq nih???seriously kbhagiaan amat ssah skli u dicari tp amat mudah skli u mrasai khlangannya,ape slah aq???rupe2nye ape yg aq bmbgkn sjak dua tiga hari yg lpas mgkin akan mnjadi knyataan,Ya Allah...hbatnya dugaanMu pda hambaMu ini,trlalu byak aq diuji...blom puas aq mngecapi nikmat bhgia,bertubi ujian dtang melanda...for the first time entry diiringi air mata yg x hnti2 mgalir...mula2 skit,lpas tuh,knyataan phit ini plak ke yg aq hrus trime???aq x sggup...mcm mne aq nk hdapi hri2 yg akn dtg???final exam ag...aduh!!!ape sume nih???aq pn ingin mrasa hdup bhgia...hurmmm...ntah la,da nsib aq cmni kot,ok la...not in the mood,daaa :(

Thursday 10 November 2011

Only One :)

I dedicated this song 4 u my love, Tqah Nasir...

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up and I give up
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out
And try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go but there's just no one
That gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

I've made my mistakes, lead you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone


And something's breaking up
I feel like giving up
I won't walk out untill you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out
And try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go but there's just no one
That gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note for you, my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out
And try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go but there's just no one
No one like you
You are my only, my only one


Wednesday 9 November 2011

Terrible Week :(

salam n hye all,lme da x wt entry bru...bkn x nk wt p aq mgharungi satu mgu yg amat mnyakitkn,aq xtau pe mslahnye n skrg nih...da smgu aq skit,hurmmm...ntah la,kifarah dosa kot...xpe,aq trime,p seriously aq mmg btol2 skit...ngan demam,batuk,selsema n segala bagai...plus pnyakit pelik kpale aq yg dtg blik secara tiba2,first time aq mnangis sorg2 memikirkan nasib aq nih...Oh Tuhan,adakah mahu dijemput blik hambaMu ini???spanjang hidup aq,x pnah aq ase skit sbegini...p aq trime segalanya,mgkin ni dugaan dariNya wt aq :) btw,tq to my fmly 4 their concern towards me,n not to forget,the queen of my heart...Tqah Nasir,always be there when i need u...so skrg nih exam week,u aq...mgu yg agak memeritkn,nk stdy...xchat plak tuh,hadoi...mmg lgsung xde mood!!!so kpda kwn2 yg trase hti jika gurauan kamo sume x dlyan,sory la ok...but really appreciate ur efforts to make me smile :) aq ase enuf la u entry kli nih...n lastly,please pray 4 my health ok!!!daaa :)